Dear Miriam,
…and now, because I know myself better and actually like myself more, I learned to like and love my husband again. I am married to him now, not because I have to be, but because I want to be.
Thank you,
Hope 46, married for 20 years
My Dear Friend,
That certainly is a lot of history! I am glad that you recognize that quality of your relationship and your husband has benefited from our work together. And, I know from our work that “after all this time, you still love him” and I hope that from your new perspective, you will be able to stay in this “calm ecstasy” of being together again. In this stage of marriage (the 6th, which occurs approximately from 17-20 years of being together), couples usually recognize that they “want to be together”, they want to stay married. Divorce is not an option anymore, despite some irreconcilable differences. Power is no longer an issue, winning a fight is no longer important: We learn to make compromises with ourselves instead of making them with each other.
As good as ‘together’ seems to feel, it would be very short-sighted to overlook the danger of a marriage falling apart right after enjoying a period of “rebirth”. More and more couples are divorcing after being together for more than 15 years (in 1960 this separation rate was 4%, in 1990 – over 40%). This may be because of the new freedom many people experience at this stage (with coincides with the transition into mid-life), which also helps many of us break out of marriages that have felt too confining for far too long. One of the prime triggers for divorce at this stage is the inability of one (or both) spouse(s) to stop controlling their partner. We must agree to control ourselves instead of continuing to control each other, and we usually experience quite an anger for being forced out of our controlling position. If we do not work through our anger, several different resolutions may occur:
Separation and/or divorce;
Preservation of a “poor” marriage while living in the open warfare or unresolved silent conflict (an “emotional cold war”, so to speak);
Often, people rationalize their lack of courage in seeking a clean break by worrying about a divorce harming their social standing, business, family image, or by convincing themselves that they can not afford to “give up the money involved in the marriage”. Another reason people stay in loveless relationships is their addiction to conflict and crisis – the craziness of fighting with a partner keeps them from going “even crazier”. As we can see, the most overwhelming reason why marriages break at stage six is the unwillingness of one or both partners to accept and work with change. For couples who are unable to welcome change, there are three possible outcomes at this stage:
The couple can float, enduring an unhappy marriage in quiet desperation;
They can act out volcanic needs of unresolved feelings by fighting until they are stilled only by age or death;
Get a divorce.
For those of us who are ready to approach the most essential trade off – control for intimacy – the fulfilling transition means new freedom (for years twenty and beyond), together forever. This is the time of surging personal growth: both partners are fully accepting and accepted. This is a rich reward for growing together while remaining enough of an individual to grow as your own person as well. The reward of this heart-centered journey is the blossoming happiness in your marriage.
Love,
Miriam